Mother Nature, Mother Nurture

I met her at the beach, Bellows Beach, one of the most beautiful long beaches on Oahu.

She stands stately and tall at the beach’s tree line. She’s been standing there for decades, maybe even a century.

Her limbs are outstretched, soaking in the morning sun and daring the trade winds to try to blow her down. They don’t, they invigorate and strengthen her.

Fearless, she relishes her position on Earth. Her wisdom runs both deep and tall.

She knows who she is and she knows her worth. She trusts the world will provide all that she needs.

Time spent in Mother Nature nurtures our spirit. It reminds us on a deep, often unconscious level, that we are a part of the natural world around us.

We’ve built so much on top of Mother Nature, and often marvel at that part of the world too. But that’s not the part we turn to when we need to feel revitalized.

When we need to “get away and clear our head” we turn to Mother Nature. Like a trusted companion, ever present, yet often ignored, she's always there for us.

Perhaps that’s why we call her Mother.

Mother Nature factors into most of my art. She’s even the inspiration for many of my abstract paintings.

Mother Nature catches my eye. My imagination transforms her energy onto paper. Look closely and you will feel her there.

Art is a natural form of communication. Art speaks to us on conscious and unconscious levels.

We fill our homes with living plants and often share our space with a pet (or several) to keep Mother Nature nearby.

Art is another way to keep Mother Nature close —one that doesn’t need feeding.

Dream Time

Our dreams are our personal source of renewable energy.

Whether or not we remember our dreams, we all have them — by day and by night.

I love to nap and to dream! I’ve been a power-napper since college — able to fall asleep fast, and awaken refreshed after 10–30 min.

Lately I’ve been telling myself I want to take a nap when I wake up in the middle of the night. The results aren’t in yet, but it’s early days for this experiment.

Sharing our dreams with others is a good way to get to know one another and to feel connected.

It’s also risky.

Only share your dreams with trusted friends and mentors.

The language of dreams can make us laugh with glee or recoil in horror. Part of the fun of dreams is learning to decipher our own dream language.

I’ve never been fond of other people’s interpretations of dreams. I like Carl Jung’s work suggesting that every character in our dreams relates to some part of us.

Decades ago I taught myself to fly in my dreams because it sounded like fun, and I wanted to see if I could fly.

Every night before I fell asleep, I told myself I would fly in my dreams. It took a few nights practice before I flew, and the first time I did, my excitement at flying woke me up.

Still, it was a fun exercise in learning how to get more out of one third of my life — the sleeping part.

These days my expectation and invitation is that I am open to receiving information while I sleep.

I ask questions before I fall asleep so I can wake up with answers or ideas.

Dream Time is a gift we give to ourselves and to the world. The information of our dreams holds clues to answer the questions we have when we’re awake.

It seems a shame to place all of our attention on our waking state while ignoring what goes on in our creative minds while we sleep.

Sweet Dreams!

Spring Retreat vs. Spring Break

Why go on a retreat at all?

I go for renewal and to learn something new. I go expecting to be stretched and expanded so I can become more of who I really am.

It’s not improvement I seek; it’s more along the lines of shining a light into the corners of darkness that fill my mind from time to time.

Very much like Spring Cleaning, this is a time to refresh and reboot my internal operating system.

I’m going in for an upgrade!

Whether you work for another, you’re self-employed, or are retired, retreats are an invaluable way to invest in yourself and your life.

I’ve always been a “seeker of meaning”.

I went on a Vision Quest in Death Valley in the 90s. I spent three days and nights alone with no food, just water and a lean-to I had to build myself.

There were 10–12 others from all walks of life on that trip — a police chief from Ohio, a former nun from CA, a woman in her 70s, and a young man in his 20s.

I learned a lot about myself and about others on that trip.

My backpack was heavy. In addition to my sleeping bag, bedroll, tarp, rope, and knife, I had clothing, books, pencils, sketchbook, and three gallons of water to last me the three days.

On my first night alone in the desert, I was hungry and a little cold. Up until then the only days I’d ever “fasted” where when I had the flu — those days don’t count. I’d brought along three butterscotch candies just in case I got “too hungry” (how I thought three candies would help is beyond me!).

I came really close to eating them that first night as I tossed and turned on the desert floor. I was a little “panicky” until I realized this was a coyote moment for me.

Coyote is the Trickster in many Native American cultures. He was trying to trick me into giving up on myself, taunting me with hunger pangs and fears of losing my strength.

Once I realized my fears were my "coyote", I had a few sips of water and fell asleep. Temptation was gone and I proved to myself that I could last three days with just water out in the desert.

Another food-related insight came when I realized that if I were at home, I’d eat a sandwich rather than go for a walk, or draw, or read, or journal. That’s when I became aware that food can be used to distract us from the things we really want to do with our time.

On the third hot desert day, as I sat journaling in the “buff”, I heard a strange noise. It made no sense to me. I couldn’t place it, I had no idea what it was — until three fighter jets streaked across the sky right above me.

It was then I realized how distant I’d felt;
yet how close I still was to the world at large.

After our three days alone in the desert, all of the “questers” reconvened at base camp to share our experiences. Listening to everyone’s stories and telling my own, I realized that no matter who we are, what we do, or what we look like, we have more in common with one another than we have differences.

My paintings always give me hints about what's happening in my life. This tree caught my attention when at the beach last Sunday. She's just begun. she's reaching tall with exuberance.

My paintings always give me hints about what's happening in my life. This tree caught my attention when at the beach last Sunday. She's just begun. she's reaching tall with exuberance.

That was my first retreat; I’ve gone on several more since then. Each one is different and each one fuels me in different ways.

I expect this retreat will fill me up in new ways. I’m a little nervous as I pack. There might be a coyote moment ahead, and I expect to be stretched in new ways and to learn something new about my abilities. I’m going to reconfigure the path I’ve been on these past 17 years.

This beginning painting explores my angst going into this retreat. Sure I'm a tad anxious entering the unknown. It'll be fun to see these paintings completed AFTER the retreat!

This beginning painting explores my angst going into this retreat. Sure I'm a tad anxious entering the unknown. It'll be fun to see these paintings completed AFTER the retreat!

Please stay tuned for an update in the weeks ahead.

The Space Between Comfort Zones

My Comfort zone has vanished — AGAIN!

Beware! Once you pass your comfort zone, keep going!
There is no turning back!

No worries, you will reach a new comfort zone — although it might be a while before you arrive.

Take heart; expansion, growth and change are what you wanted.

You wanted to go beyond the places you’ve been before, to "Feel the Force”, the pull of new adventures.

Feeling the excitement of new adventures is not the same
as going on those great adventures.

There are always ups and downs on the great adventures we read about in books or watch in movies.

In life, these ups and downs take longer to experience.

Momentum is a powerful neutral force — yet a force nonetheless.

Inertia is an opposing and equally powerful force.

I think of inertia as more of a negative force, but maybe it’s just HEAVY. It takes powerful lifting to get moving once inertia has set in.

Fear is often the force behind my inertia.

When I’m afraid to take action — which often means I’m afraid to start a new project, inertia digs in its heels.

Dread is one of Inertia’s best friends.

The emotional space that Dread occupies is immense.

Dread and fear dance maniacally round and round, eating up precious moments and consuming vast amounts of time and energy.

Awareness is key, and is the first step to conquering Dread, Fear, and Inertia.

Once we realize the crazy “do-si-do” going on in our brain (and stomach), we can devise tools to “stop the music”.

Changing our focus helps us to change our thoughts. Once we’re looking at something different (a new novel or movie), or we’re exercising, our focus softens and relaxes.

With relaxation and a calm breath, comes the power
to change our thoughts.

Changing thoughts, whether or not they’re related to the cause of our dread/fear/inertia (“D/F/I”), helps move us into a neutral zone.

From a neutral zone, we can reach for better feeling thoughts in general and eventually to thoughts about the cause of our “D/F/I”.

From here we take action, even the tiniest action will help.

Before you know it, momentum takes over and you’re back in business.

This painting was started in front of my Hide-N-Seek watercolor class at Hawaiian Graphics. I wanted my students to see what it feels like to create a painting that's asking to be painted. It's a very different energy to paint something that's calli…

This painting was started in front of my Hide-N-Seek watercolor class at Hawaiian Graphics. I wanted my students to see what it feels like to create a painting that's asking to be painted. It's a very different energy to paint something that's calling you rather than painting something just for the sake of painting.